Then I called on the name of the Lord : “Please, Lord , save me!”
How kind the Lord is! How good He is! So merciful, this God of ours!
The Lord protects those of childlike faith; I was facing death, and He saved me.
Let my soul be at rest again, for the Lord has been good to me.
Psalms 116:4-7
The Lord is my protection.
I had almost forgot. In my busy daily routine, I’d almost forgotten this important fact. I’ve been spending quite some time creating a comfortable and safe environment for myself. I’ve got my group of close friends, established myself at both jobs, gotten my apartment fixed up and feeling “homey” and established comforting routines. All factors that contribute to me feeling safe.
But things are changing too fast and I feel like my safety zones are falling apart. I’m moving back home with my parents. So, packing and the “un-homey” feeling in my apartment is a current task. I’m significantly reducing my hours at one job. I’m feeling isolated from my friends and family and, to top it all off, I’m facing a dilemma at the other job that is directly assaulting my safety zone and I feel nothing is being done to address the issue. I no longer feel safe.
The Lord is my protection.
After relying on company policies and trying to do things, in what seemed to be, the right way; and, in my opinion, being shot down, I’ve pondered and mulled over trying to make sense of my world. The world that I thought I’d isolated so well; that I was untouchable from the injustice of this world’s system. Then it dawned on me: I was relying on the comforts and safety I could set up to protect me. (I must have forgotten I am only human.)
During all of this, I’ve talked to the Lord and explained how I feel. I’ve taken each emotion to Him. I’ve even stared into the sky and told Him that I didn’t feel this was something I should have to deal with.
Then I called on the name of the Lord:
“Please, Lord , save me!” How kind the Lord is! How good He is!
So merciful, this God of ours! The Lord protects those of childlike faith;
I was facing death, and He saved me. Let my soul be at rest again,
for the Lord has been good to me.
Psalms 116:4-7
The Word of God says that the Lord protects those of childlike faith. Given my current situation I can bring nothing to the table but childlike faith—because I have nothing left. After I paused and went to the Word, I found a Scripture that fits my situation perfectly:
Proverbs 29:25
Fear of man will prove to be a snare,
but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe.
Ultimately, what I’m struggling with is fear. My ‘safe’ doesn’t feel safe and I’m afraid. The fact that I already have a lot going on does not help the situation, and neither do my sleepless nights. The fact that I feel helpless and misunderstood doesn’t help either, but God’s Word says trusting Him is safety. And, as we know God’s Word is truth, I need to trust Him.
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Lord, I am thankful that no matter what I’m going through You always have something for me in Your Word to guide me. And although fear is threatening to paralyze me, I know that You are greater. Thank You for watching over me, and I trust that Your understanding of these situations is far greater than mine. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
