My story is made up of many love letters written from my heart to God’s heart and from His to mine. I open up to Him with a pen in my hand and a journal in my lap. The Lord speaks to me through my writings and I am beyond excited to share with you bits and pieces of different letters I have from God. I share parts of my story so that God’s love, power, grace, forgiveness, and perfectness may be showcased. As you read, I pray the Lord grabs a hold of your heart and fills you with hope!
GOD,
Why is it that I still have no one to hold my hand through this life? I don’t have any idea how I am going to have that family I have always desired so strongly to have with no husband in sight. I know the truth that You are all I need…that You hold me by Your right hand. I know that You will give me the desires of my heart. I do not mean to sound ungrateful for these promises because I most certainly am NOT. In fact, these promises have dried my tears on several occasions. But there are several more occasions, God. More occasions where I may know the truth but my dateless nights and single looking future have me believing otherwise. How do I do it, Lord? How do I constantly find hope and comfort and satisfaction in You alone and not in my desire to have a husband one day? Please, Lord; open my heart to the truth You have prepared for me. I so desperately need to hear from You.
Love,
Your discouraged single daughter, Diane
Dear One,
Your honesty is what I have been waiting for. I was waiting for you to admit to yourself, and to Me that you put your ideals over My plans for you. Until you give up control of your non-existent love life, I simply cannot work in your life to bring you My love. I will bring you another love, the love of the man I have hand-picked just for you to hold your hand one day. BUT, first you must accept My love in your life. I know you have accepted me into your heart. I know you have written down those truths and promises that I have given you in the past all over your bedroom and bathroom mirror. I know you have stored them up in your house, but what does your heart look like? Are they there, too, when you need them the most? On a snowy night when all you want to do is cuddle up with a man and watch a movie, do you reach into your heart for My promise to be the one to comfort you when you are all alone on that snowy night; or do you reach to your phone to contact that not-so-good-for-you guy that you are willing to settle for if these lonely nights continue much longer. The thing you are learning is when you choose Me over everything that tempts you so much as a single woman in this world, that is when I will make those promises shine through your life. Surely then, you will feel them! I will bring you comfort and you will grow even closer to Me! There is nothing wrong with you because you are single. You are single because I am still molding you into the princess I have created you to be. There will be a man one day, someone who spots you out of a crowd because he sees that you are living a life reflective of what is in your heart. Don’t waste these moments and miss out on a chance to fill your heart with My blessings from above—the very thing your husband desires to see. There will never be a man who will replace what I am for you. There will only be a man who will add to the beauty and love I have given you. When you become discouraged, reach out your hand to Me; I promise I will always grab on and comfort you no matter what the pain is you may feel.
Love Always,
Your Knight in Shining Armor
Heavenly Lord,
Thank you for this time I have to grow closer to You. You have opened my eyes to something huge! I do not want a man to want me; I want a man to want what He sees through my heart: YOU. I pray that I make the most of this single time to seek You. Show me Your ways, guide me in Your truth. Lord, I completely trust that when I get to my ‘aha!’ moment with You; the moment where I know and feel Your truth running through my soul, that is where I will be found in You-nothing else will matter. This single life is all about teaching me to get to that moment. No one else can bring me to that moment, not even a man. I know You are my only Hope in this lesson of learning to feel You more. I am sorry for sulking in this singleness. I choose from this moment forward to embrace the time I have to grow closer to You. Give me Your perfect strength to help me get through! Thank you , I love you!
Love, Your Princess in training
©Diane Meyers 2013
Questions for Reflection:
- Meditate on Psalm 25:4 and 5. Shift your focus onto God and off of the desire to have a husband one day, even if just for a minute. Journal this experience.
- Are you ready to be boldly honest with God? He knows your heart more than you do, get out the honesty He has been waiting to hear from you.
- Let your heart’s desire to be living for and with God. Get rid of all other hopes and dreams. Let God fill your heart, for then you will find what His hopes and dreams are for you.
