I received an email the other day from Dear Friend who was checking in to see how I am doing and sharing about the current joys in her heart and life.  ‘Why an email’ <you might be thinking>, ‘when she could connect with me much quicker with a Facebook message?’  Yes, I surely understand your query…I mean if she did that…my iPad would sound out that I had a message and, perhaps, I would run right over and check it out…plop down in my chair…and immediately respond to her!  (Been there?  Done that?  Me, too…many, many, many times over!)  But, see, right now I am having a mutiny against the excess of media in my life.  So, I am severely limiting my Facebook time which includes messaging as well as cutting out any texting along with eliminating other media influence (television, radio, iPad apps, Pinterest, online games).

May I share with you what I wrote to Dear Friend?

“To answer your query about how I am doing…well, this is quite the ride!  Just sayin’!  Oh, the things that God is choosing to unearth…oh my.  He is showing me a thing or two (or twelve or twenty!) about some issues in my little heart.  Like what I do—or at least am tempted to do—when my little heart is distressed.  It appears that I try to assuage those feelings. Not good…. It has been brought to my attention that I do NOT consistently run to Him with my worries, my fears, my doubts, my hurts, and my pain.”

Yes…there it is.  This is where God has really gotten my attention!  He has unveiled my eyes to see that I allow other things to take His place as my Father, Provider, Protector, Healer.  He has promised to be my Stronghold, to help me, to deliver me, to save me…if I take refuge in Him—rather than trying to deal with it on my own.

Fret not yourself because of evildoers; be not envious of wrongdoers!
For they will soon fade like the grass and wither like the green herb.
Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord; trust in Him, and He will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday.
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him;
Fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way,
Over the man who carries out evil devices!
Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath! Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil.
For the evildoers shall be cut off, but those who wait for the Lord shall inherit the land.
The salvation of the righteous is from the Lord; He is their stronghold in the time of trouble.
The Lord helps them and delivers them; He delivers them
from the wicked and saves them, because they take refuge in Him.
Psalms 37:1-9, 39 and 40

There is a word I used in my note to Dear Friend—‘assuage.’  And when I wrote it I wasn’t quite sure it communicated just what the Lord had been reproving and correcting me about.  So I checked the dictionary (yes…online) and here’s what I found:

assuage, verb
pronunciation: [uh-sweyj]
definition: soothe, relieve
synonyms: allay, alleviate, appease, calm, compose, conciliate,
ease, fill, lessen, lighten, lull, make nice, mitigate, moderate,
mollify, pacify, palliate, placate, pour oil on, propitiate,
quench, quiet, sate, satisfy, soften, still, surfeit, sweeten,
take the edge off, take the sting out, temper, tranquilize

Ouch!  Wow!  Did that ever set me back in my seat!  And then the tears came…and I repented.  Because I surely do NOT ever want to be taking over where my heavenly Father wants to take care of me!  He is so much better at it than I; His care is perfect and meets my every need!

Then I acknowledged my sin to You and did not cover up my iniquity.
I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord.”
And You forgave the guilt of my sin.
Therefore let all the faithful pray to You while You may be found;
surely the rising of the mighty waters will not reach them.
You are my hiding place; You will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.
‘I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you with My loving eye on you.’
Do not be like the horse or the mule, which have no understanding
but must be controlled by bit and bridle or they will not come to you.
Many are the woes of the wicked, but the Lord’s unfailing love
surrounds the one who trusts in Him.
Rejoice in the Lord and be glad, you righteous;
sing, all you who are upright in heart!
Psalms 32:5-11

AND, I must be honest, this has not all been light and easy!  But some good and encouraging things have surfaced, too!  One thing, for example, I realize that I am disciplined and not easily tempted ALL of the time.  Like my morning quiet time…just no way that I am allowing ‘you-know-who’ (satan) to steal that from me and my God!

And so I am encouraged!  With God’s help and by His grace…maybe His mercies that are renewed every morning, too…these things CAN be changed in my little heart!  I am a thankful girl for the purging and cleansing and purifying and sanctifying that my heavenly Father is choosing to do in me!  He is the Potter…I am the clay.  And thankfully I am getting molded more and more into the image of my Lord!

May I encourage you also?   ♥ 

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty Hand,
that He may lift you up in due time.
Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.
1 Peter 5:6 and 7

Praying for each of you!  ♥ 

♥  coleen

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