My story is made up of many love letters written from my heart to God’s heart, and from His to mine. I open up to Him with a pen in my hand and a journal in my lap. The Lord speaks to me through my writings and I am beyond excited to share with you bits and pieces of different letters I have from God. I share parts of my story so that God’s love, power, grace, forgiveness, and His perfectness may be showcased. As you read I pray the Lord grabs hold of your heart and fills you with hope!
Song of Songs 6:3
I am my lover’s and my lover is mine; he browses among the lilies
This year another Valentine’s Day will come and go and yet again I do not have a handsome man to be mine. This will be the 24th year in a row I will not go to a fancy dinner, receive a box of chocolates, or get the chance to smell pretty flowers from a man who loves me. Can I be honest with You, God…why? I cry at the thought of feeling so alone. What is it that is wrong with me that no man has ever wanted to be mine? Am I not skinny enough, sweet enough, kind enough, social enough, anything enough? Am I not all the right things at all the right times that a man sees as I’m driving in my car…working hard at work…staying fit at the gym…trying to find my way through the grocery store…worshiping YOU at church? I sit here sometimes and just wonder what exactly it is that has kept me from being able to have a man call me his and for him to be mine too. I remember that awful day that awful man told me I am his but he will never be mine. Lord, I am scared I will never meet a man who will want to be mine. Am I deserving of such a blessing? Have I ruined my chances, what is it Lord, please help me. All I know is I do not want to spend another day let alone another Valentine’s day feeling so alone.
Oh Precious Love of Mine,
I know that you know that you are not alone. I am with you always holding you by your right hand. Can you do Me a favor and please get rid of the lies that you are storing in your heart? There is not one moment of any day that I am not with you actively seeking you to grow even closer to you. I do not want you to feel alone; I want you to feel the love I have for you always. It breaks My heart that you cry at the thought of not having anyone to be yours. Am I not enough for you? The truth is I am more than enough for you. I know the desires of your heart; after all I am the One that has placed them there. Trust Me that I have handpicked a man for you to be yours. One who will want to pursue you with everything he has because he has learned from Me that is what you do when you love someone. I love you and I am pursuing you daily, moment by moment even! You have the luxury of being pursued and loved by Me every day of your life not just the single days. These single days are here to spend loving time with Me. Please take advantage of this Valentine’s Day. I promise one day there will be a man who asks you to be his, but in that moment please never forget that I, too, am asking you to be Mine—this Valentine’s Day and every day in between for the rest of your life!
Yours always, God
The One my heart has been longing for,
It is true over and over again—You truly are the Lover of my soul! You are what I have been longing for. You are what takes away this awful lonely feeling I do not want to feel. Why is it so easy for me to forget that You are my heart’s only true satisfaction? Anyone can bring me chocolates and anyone can buy me flowers, but no one can give me the priceless gift that You have already given me! Your sacrifice and love for me is more than enough to fulfill all of my heart’s desires. I will never forget the day I read in the Song of Songs that You are mine and I am Yours! Words that were once used to hurt me, You used to mend my broken heart. Valentine’s Day is not a day for single women to feel anger or bitterness towards all of the happy couples out there. This Valentine’s Day I will choose to pursue You and be thankful that You are pursuing me too! This is the day I will choose to not whine about what I do not have but accept and be thankful for what I have in You! My most disliked day of the year will surely be my most liked day of the year as I spend every waking moment with You! With a Valentine’s Day like that, I pray for Valentine’s Day every day!
Yours always, Diane
Questions for Reflection:
- What are you doing this Valentine’s Day? Are you consumed with fear because you do not have a man on this day? Are you going to choose to pursue the One pursuing you throughout this day and every day from now on? Embrace the comfort knowing God is yours and you are His always!
- Spend time thanking God for all He HAS DONE and WILL DO for you! As a lady in waiting, you can use this time to send a lot of thank you’s to God in Heaven for His PAST, PRESENT, and FUTURE blessings!
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